Everyday surprise

Sometimes life surprises me and I seem to adapt too quickly to them. I get frustrated, obsessed, and comfortable in sudden bursts. My heart loves drifting over those waves of feelings. High and low and high and low....
Thoughts of you flood over me while I try to concentrate and do work. I expect too much of no big deals. I augment my feelings exponentially at every hour passed since we kissed. Here lies the danger of physical distance. I cannot rely on my mind. My body cries too loud for your love.
Everyday I wonder if you obsess as well. How can I separate the games I play in my mind from my actual feelings? It is too early to have any real feelings. I am blinded by my strong desire of feeling this so intensely. Every day I wish to live a relationship more intense than those lived before. But it is just a matter of finding the right person. Where is he? Is he out there? Is he out here? Is it you?